Warm sadness

There I lay in my bed, no emails came in
No one called to check-in
Here I lay in bed, trying to get warm trying to stay away
Blocked from the world I stayed to dwell in the world of sadness
Some seen some unknown to me

What did I do to them, did my frowning face do it?
Or was it my ambitious energy that did it
Was it my over preparedness to respect them, was it that they never understood me

Alone in this world trying to explain your ways, trying to survive
Trying to experience it all, trying to handle it trying to understand the pain

No one wants to help, no one wants to love, no one wants to be, no one wants to take the responsibility
So far I have come, so many desires fulfilled.
Yet so far are those close to my heart, yet so far are my desires indeed