Drowning

I don't know when it started the numb that fill my entire body, till I cant move, I can't think. All I do is set there rocking back and forth, every emotion showing but face not glowing.

I shouldn't even be able to say I'm used to the feeling. But yet here I am. Six feet and I'm on the ledge. If I jump I could be gone for ever but if I stay I'm stuck in the same vicious cycle.

On one hand I hurt like I'm stuck in a dark place. On the other hand I lose parts of who I am. What do I do? What way is the right way? Will the voices ever be silenced?

They tell me im worthless, they ask me who could ever love me? And I honestly have no answer for the voices inside my head. Yet I try to shut them out. For me there's is no rest for my weary soul only drowning in these emotions.

I will keep on fighting and try my hardest for I know, nothing good in life ever comes easy. All things worth doing is worth fighting for yet I do not have the strength.