Analysis of close friends

months have passed and you have changed
all that I new of you has turned into dust
just a rumble I am unwilling to participate
you turned love into a fearful monster in my eyes
how do I even look at you the same as I did before?

admiration left, whiten teeth you flesh so easily
tears you held have turned you into a bully
would have trashed my entire world for a piece
a merely piece of your broken heart and torn soul
feeling betrayal every time I see your lips move

disgusted by the common things we share
used to look up to you through a beauty lens
fruitful friendships turned black they day we met
we weren't good for one another, my naivety dawned
could never admire the counterpart all of my coldness

four summers since we meet and i have loved it all
the cold winters, the stolen drunk kisses
matters of the heart are always complicated
its never as easy as we make it to be when we leave
how to  walk away from such a love spring?

my maddening state has paralyzed my dark thoughts
grateful for all the fun we had when we had a language
now all our words no longer has the same meaning
emotions have left as the circle line evaded through
scary tangents cutting our ties it's a brave world