Analysis of Nightmare

When all I see is complaining and nagging,
I watched you and her
Under the street light pole,
I begged for mercy
Hoping to come back home
But my emotions kept failing me,
Bringing back the pictures of you and her
Under the street light pole
Standing side by side,
Exchanging kisses like you have never been kissed before.

Is loving you  a crime?
If yes, what's my offense?
If loving you is an offense,
What price do I have to pay?
If loving is a sin,
I'd rather go to hell
So as to make you mine.
If loving you is a sickness,
I'd choose to be your headache
And not your cure.
If loving you is a life time sleep,
I'd choose not to wake up and face reality.

You have once loved me to the core
But now all I can see in you  is a changed man.
You have always promised to be with me till eternity,
Now reality has taken place in time.
Do I still deserve those sweet names you do call me,
Or am I an enemy to myself?
Living under the shadows of lies
With the man I called my own
Even when we took an oath together,
Thinking we'd be together,
Till death do us part.