Analysis of life im done with you

im only 17
and i feel like im dying
I'm getting sad too soon
I hope I make it 'cause I'm trying
I've loved and I've lost
And I realized that it's all my fault
Wish someone loved me enough
To catch me when I fall
Hmm
And I know it's kinda selfish but
It's not my choice to leave
'Cause I wish I could stay
But it's more of a need
For me to go away
I'm tired of the world hating on me
I wake up to the friends that I can't keep
And when the end is near and I'm asleep
I'll be my chasing dreams while counting sheep
Hmm, hmm
When I turn 18 , I'ma feel like I'm flying
I'm in the sky where, where I'm free and I'm smiling
But till then
Things will stay in the same
Things will never change
Life will be a mess
And that life I became hopelessly in love
With doing what my brain tells me to do
And life, I'm done with you