Analysis of Solo

These thoughts I compose with tiresome shots,
Blotted by the sun shining with starry spots,
Sleepless nights unknowing what to do,
Trying to remember the memories of photos with you,
Wondering if there was a memory of myself in you,
So I don't pretend like everything is so grand,
Because of the distance of the tiresome feats,
We used to face together on adventures so sweet,
Yet no longer do I consider the togetherness of such,
Alone and solo with no thoughts of forever much,
I couldn't hold our family together because of my own consequential behaviors,
So why try so I no longer dream of such fie,
Hoping for the best even through my endless nigh.