Analysis of If You Only Knew

So many different emotions at once
you can be sweet and mean
egotistical at times
but always open-minded and halarious
sometimes you make me so angry
I love it when you make me laugh
I hate you when you hurt my feelings
in turn, I respect you even more
I find you more attractive
and that makes me furious!
the way I feel when I am with you
can be described in one word- comfort
when I saw you cry for the first time
it broke my heart
maybe because I could not hold you
maybe because you are so beautiful
what is a soulmate?
is soulmate even a word?
perhaps I will never know
perhaps it is only I who is in love