Analysis of Life

Life is not what I thought it would be
I am merely a lost soul,
roaming wild and free.

Life always seems to let me down
no tears of disappointment,
just the faint glimmer of a frown.

It's easier to hold your feelings inside
I learned this concept,
when my spirit died.

Intense situations at a young age
is what brought about
all this built up rage.

Now I sit and rethink my life's plan,
I try to make good decisions for myself,
for only I can.

But is it really worth it all
to live through all this insanity
just to wait for God's call?