to everyone i ever thought loved me...

you're right, im the worst.
if anyone on this entire earth could be worse for you it would be me.
there's no one else out there quite like me is there?
as awful, as excruciatingly terrible, as repelling to you.
i was created just to be hurt by you and you only.
the only person to love you and be destroyed by you.
it was me.
God chose me.
he chose me just to make you feel better about yourself.
and i'm happy he did.
he made a living, breathing, functioning hell just for you.
because even though i loved you,
i wanted to be with you,
i wanted to be yours...
you would rather see me dead
or better yet not even capable of death because that would mean i had to be alive in the first place,
just never here.
i never knew how much someone could not want to know you, until i met you.
even when i was on the floor, crying,
you were happy with everything in your life just because i was not with you.
I. Am. Your. Living. Hell.
you won, keep winning
...im rooting for you