The Battle Inside

Surrounded by loneliness,
So as not, to feel alone.
A heart so fragile,
Boasting a facade of stone.

Trying to gain strength,
With tears running down my face.
Striving for a future,
In a past, time and place.

Hanging on to the memories,
Wishing I could forget.
The sanity is my security,
Kept warm by the perpetual threat.

Bright flashes of wisdom,
Evolve into thoughts of anger.
A few moments of peace,
Make me oblivious, to the danger.

Cursing at each verse,
Of an old, religious tune.
Praying to live forever,
While hoping, the end is soon.

I slowly close my eyes,
So that I can see more clearly.
I quietly scream out loud,
So no one, will hear me.