My story

I opened up wide to you and left pieces of me behind
(Mostly in your teeth, but still)

When you saw my mountain, you wanted to climb me
You studied and prepared
You had all the right equipment and
Truth be told
The climb wasn't that hard
(For you)

A little long maybe, but at least you weren't waiting
(like I was)

Anyway, you climbed and
I came and
You came and
We both came
To meet at your door or
Was it my door?
(Which I guess is still your door)

I invited you in or maybe you invited yourself
Either way I had been waiting and I didn't even know
(Til you showed up)

But when I figured it out, well, you know how silly I am
I invited you in KNOWING my house was mess
(You never told me it was a fucking test)

I didn't even need to open my pages
Or ask you to read aloud, while I laid
Naked as could be
For you to grow to know
Every imperfection
My soul EX-posed
Screaming 'I love you' from the very TIP TOP
Of my lungs, my idiot mouth unable to STOP
(Telling you shit)

So yeah, it felt like you took a piece of me
(Maybe only because I wanted you to)

Look, I knew I was giving without having been asked
But when you take what is offered and touch it like that
I don't think it's fair to expect a 'my bad'
(To be the only explanation)

It's not your fault you didn't want my pieces
I know they aren't great
(But so did you)

I made them myself, though
And I was holding them, waiting
For him to come, so
When you came and
I came and
We came
To meet at the door
Naturally, I thought you were the HIM I had been waiting for

Funny thing is, I saw you coming but
You didn't look like you were headed my way
And I didn't think you could be HIM anyway
(Til you got closer)

See, I didn't know that while you DID climb my mountain looking for HER
And you DID come to my door or
Did we decide I came to yours?
(Either way I came)

I mean you came, inside
And announced your presence
Looked around at my contents
Put all on display
Oohed and aahed at them even
Set everything just the right way
You hinted to the future
and where you might fit
(Inside me)

You gave every impression you liked my home or
Me being at yours and
That there would be frequent, future visits
Without saying the words
(Because that makes it count)

You were wrong, though, I'm not smarter than you
(But I'm learning)

You entered and
Willingly and mostly graciously
Accepted every silly piece of me

All right and good but
The thing that gets me
Is you knew
While you chewed
On the food
That you
Swallowed whole AND asked for seconds of
That it was made in a kitchen that ONLY serves love
Still, you pulled up a chair
Just like you belonged there

And you knew it was only me in the place that you ravaged
And no amount of looting would make me the girl you imagined
I know I asked for it
(But I didn't know it would feel so good)

I know I sound crazy
All I'm TRYING to say is
You knew when you bit into ME
I wasn't the HER you came up here to meet
Maybe you thought I could be?
(Til I got closer)
Common mistake actually

You gave me my shit back, true to your word
You say things without words though, ya know?

It's true though, we never discussed
The way I would be used
Or the length of the lease
I had that all wrote up once
Just for you to read
(But I guess you never got to it)

My heart...
I mean my pieces
Are healing fine, thanks for asking

He still writes
Every now and then
I think he might...

But the truth is he writes
So that anyone concerned
Doesn't get anything twisted
(Does he stay to watch me burn?)
No, it was only upon my own insistence
That he ever even came to know
Every closet, every bedroom
Of my humble abode

Of course I always write back
Just being nice
Of course I don't say
I'm still holding my insides
(Unrequited love can't kill me twice, right?)

I tell him I knew it was never anything like...
I guess it just never was anything