Fantasy World

I live in a fantasy world,
a world where I was never shy,
I was never nervous there was no one teasing the confidence out of me.

I live in a fantasy world, where everything was okay
I did not make so many mistakes, there was no regrets in you and me.

Oh if only it were real.
If only I was that girl I always meant to be.
Maybe I  would not be wondering what was real, what wasn’t, what life could be.
My stomach wouldn’t be where my heart is practically living.
But that’s not real life. I never pictured this is how I feel and where I’d be.

Fantasy worlds don’t exist, they don’t get you any further. My head knows this but somehow might heart is still yearning to finally see
how to go forward, and somehow maybe salvage of what life should’ve been and what it still could be.

Oh deep down inside I just wish I could live in my fantasy world where I was never shy, I was never nervous, there was no regrets in you and me.