i fucked up

i know i fucked up
i know what i did was wrong
i some how couldn't help my self
i really wanted to make this work
but now you've gone and done this
i really don't think it will
I'm trying so hard to fight it
this feeling of sickness
betrayal anger and hate
i love you but why
i know Ive lied to you over and over
i don't know how you forgave me
but you managed it
and now i realise your here to stay
so as i try so hard
i don't find it hard at all