Turmoil

TURMOIL
For years you’ve tried to kill me
Constantly blurring my future so I can’t see
Always willing to be my crutch
To the light of my future, I try to clutch

You have never said no to me
Even though at times I wish you would leave me be
With you, I begin to hate myself
Watching us destroy my mental health

Wishing I had the courage to walk away from you
In hopes that someday I’ll forget about you
But I’m addicted to how you make me feel
All I have to do is break that seal

You transform me into a different person
Someone who thinks everything is fun
Without a care in the world
Being a coward no more

Waking the next morning confused and hurt
Come to find out with death I did flirt
At least so-called friends were amused
Just like in the days before this, I feel abused

The time has come to walk away from you
I have better things to do
I am refusing to drink from your bottle anymore
Now it’s time to kick in a new door